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Wednesday, December 29th, 2004
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it's been a long time..
but sadly, i have become addicted to xanga..
(sorry)
but i thought that this was worth putting here...
been in one of those emotional moods..so here ya go.
all you have to do is fill in the blanks :)
I _____ Alleigh.
Alleigh is ____.
Alleigh needs ______.
Someday Alleigh will _______.
Alleigh reminds me of _______.
Without Alleigh_________.
I think Alleigh should _________.
Alleigh makes me want to _______.
If I could spend the day with Alleigh I'd ____________.
I'd ______ for Alleigh
Alleigh is the _________.
If I could be Alleigh for a day, I'd ______.
I want to give Alleigh a(n) ________.
later alligator!
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Monday, December 6th, 2004
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Mondays are crappy days...
This morning I definitely walked outside with val's 'holey' shoes on..and by the time I got to the Calder Art Center I was practically SWIMMING in them. Very, very gross!
But my day got better because I got to have lunch with Val, Candice, and Brandon. :)
I also found out today that there is a chance that Candice will be staying here next semester. That would be VERY cool :)
Hmm, now I am very bored...
Oh well.
In less then 3 hours I will be going to dinner and "studying" and then hanging out with the 'writing crew'.
That hopefully will be fun :)
Well, I think it's time for me to find something today until Val gets back from class...
Later!
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Why do I try?
Why am I so open?
Why do I feel like I need to tell people everything that happens to me?
Why am I an open book?
Why don't people tell me that I am annoying them?
Why do I care so much about what people think?
Why do I let the smallest things get to me?
Why do I not feel loved?
I feel like I annoy people. I'm sorry, but when something is on my mind, I tend to talk about it more then I should.
Why don't you just ignore me? How about I just stop talking and keep everything inside of me?? Maybe that would work? Who knows...
Why? Why? Why?
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Sunday, December 5th, 2004
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Hmm you know what is a great thing to do? VENT on livejournal.
hmm were to begin...there is a huge story behind this whole venting thing, but i will have to explain the story some other time.
basically went to a recital tonight with a boy that i was definitely beginning to like and he 'out of the blue' states the fact that he has a girlfriend!
Mind you that this past week we have been hanging out non-stop and not once has he ever mentioned the idea of a girlfriend!!
grrrr that makes me sooo mad. who in their right mind does that?
ahh boys make me soo mad. i was really enjoying this giddy feeling too! i definitely thought that there could have been some potential here! obviously not..and the weird thing is, is that he talked about his girlfriend in such a negative way..\
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just vented with my RA for a little bit. That definitely helped :)
hmm well i think thats all i needed to say for now..
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Tuesday, November 23rd, 2004
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*sigh* I guess it is nice being home...:)
Oh!
brb my dad just walked in the door...I must greet him!
so ya, i have a LOT of news..
but i really don't feel like updating anymore...
i'm watching tv at the moment..maybe I will just have to update more later!!
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Monday, November 22nd, 2004
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Saturday, November 20th, 2004
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once again i am hurt and confused....
how is it that thursday night the boy made me soo happy and now tonight he treats me like dirt.
i don't understand what i did! i thought he wanted to hang out with me, but i guess i was wrong..who knows.
ahh. i should just get over him for good, but it is so hard to do that. one minute i like him, and the next minute i want to punch him in the face..
i need a new boy. or i just need to stop getting involved with boys right now....which would be soo hard to do..
hmmm what to do, what to do...should i still try and make something work with this boy, or should i completely get over him...
hopefully i will think of something soon...
well going to watch a movie at morgan's....
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Friday, November 19th, 2004
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note to self: never wear slippers in the rain. slippers don't do so well as i have found out :( poor poor slippers...
So the purpose of me waking up today at 9:30 (well it was supposed to be 8) was to write a paper, but yea..that didn't happen too well. Oh well, i will just have to turn it in on Monday...
SO BIG NEWS. Well not HUGE news, but it is big! Last night as I was walking out of Kleiner with Sarah, I ran into Morgan and Pat ( *sigh* oh how i love them) and we began to talk. Long story short, I ended up going back to their dorm with them to hang out for a bit..As I walked past a certain someone's door, I stopped by and said hello..:)
We talked for a bit then I left to go to Morgan's room.. Morgan and the girls were about to watch OC and since I have never seen OC, I decided to go back and talk to the "boy"...which was around 8pm.
Definitely did not leave his room until 11 :) (ya that's what i thought!) Before I officially left, I went back to his room for a certain reason. SIDE NOTE: you know how when you picture something in your head it goes FLAWLESS but when you actually go through with it, it doesn't?
Well that is exactly what happened. DEFINITELY not a FLAWLESS act. :(
Well that's all I had to say..now I need to go take a shower and get ready for Writing.
The weekend starts officially in 3 HOURS!! Woo Woo!
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Sunday, November 14th, 2004
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I must say that I had an AMAZING weekend! Now, it is time for the low down....
Friday at around 4ish I went home with Sarah, Emily and Mary. Got into Novi around 6:30 and was dropped off at the civic center. Oh how I loved being greeted by my wondeful grandparents :) Then I got see my mom and my dad, and all the theatre people! Talked to Nick on thursday, and he said that he would be coming to see the show with me. :) It was so nice to be able to see him!
Saturday morning he and I went to breakfast together then we went to see the Best Christmas Pagent Ever's rehearsal. Once again I got to see even more theatre people :) Oh how I loved it :) I didn't realize how much I do miss the people back at home...:(
Then after rehearsal my parents and I went to lunch at TGIFridays. Good times :)
Around 3:45ish Heather came and picked me up :) Fun times in heather's car!! (note to self: learn what express ways are near my house) Heather and I safely arrived back at school around 6:30. Took a quick power nap then it was time of the LOCK-IN!!! The lock-in was SOOOO much fun. Definitely had the BEST time!!!
Got home from the lock in early today around 8:30. Slept until 3. Then went to church and was forced (well not really) into singing. It was very fun though. Then afterwards I was semi sad that we didn't have lifeteen :(
Wow, so this entry is pretty much a list. But that's what you get when you have had about 10 hours of sleep in the past 2 days. ( i am used to getting like 24 on the weekend...)
So ya, now I really need to force myself to clean up my room and work on ART.
boo.
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Friday, November 12th, 2004
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It's 1:31am on a friday morning, and what I should be doing now is sleeping. I do plan on sleeping in a few, but A) I decided I needed to update and B) I am being amused by a drunk friend of mine. So yeah, it's been a few days since I have updated. Let's see, nothing new has really happened. Just the same old stuff. I did start talking again to people who I haven't talked to in the longest time. That is always fun :)
Tomorrow (well later today) I am going home for the night with a bunch of girls. I wasn't really looking forward to going home since I will technically only be home for 24 hours (if that), but the more I think about it, the more I do want to go home. It has been I think about a month or so since I have been home, so it will be nice to see the parents. Also I am for sure getting together with Nick, so that also will be SUPER fun.
What I am most looking forward to this weekend is the lock-in that Lifeteen is putting on at the YMCA. I am oh so excited :) I think it sounds really fun. Plus I love everyone in lifeteen.
Well I think that is a long enough update for now. I will for sure update at the end of this weekend about how my weekend was :)
'nite.
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Monday, November 8th, 2004
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Tuesday, November 2nd, 2004
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I really love going from being extremely giddy to being really hurt all in a matter of an hour.
Today after my 12pm class I noticed that the boy was online. I was definitely real excited since I hadn't talked to him in 3 days! Anyways, we talked for a pretty good amount of time, when all of a sudden he decides to tell me that he talked to the girl that he liked this weekend and he thinks that things may work out with her and that he is going to have to "postpone" our relationship. Basically the relationship that we were forming meant nothing to him. Grr. I had a feeling that this was going to happen. Why didn't I listen to myself? I should not have let this boy get so far under my skin. But I'm stupid and I did, and now I am sad. Boys can make you feel on top of the world one minute, and make you feel like dirt the next.
Well that's all I had to say.
Now it's time for me to actually work on some homework.
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Hmmm I really don't understand why a boy who is usually online EVERY single minute of every single day has not been online for the past 3 days. :( This makes me real sad. I hope that he isn't ignoring me.
:( Oh well.
It's a rainy day. I am not a fan of rainy days. Oh well.
My stomach is growling..I need to go get some lunch.
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Monday, November 1st, 2004
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So my sunday was wonderful :)
Oh how I love going to church and singing. I love the song, All in All. AMAZING. I sang so loud I didn't even care. Oh how fun that was.
I also REALLY liked lifeteen. Today was more laid back. We got to play games. Definitely LOVED playing Malarkey with Jess, Beth, Kyle, Rob (maybe?), Alex, Nick, Scott and Ryan. Way to go me for being able to name ALL of those people. It would have been even more fun if we could have played longer, but oh well, the lock-in is in TWO weeks! Eee! That will be so much fun. I can't wait.
I talked to my mom on the internet. She told me about this weekend's show. I really wish I could have been at home to see it. :( Oh well. I do get to see Miracle Worker on friday in two weeks! Cool cool! I can't wait to see everyone again! I miss them a lot.
SO ya, I haven't talked to the boy in two days. Kinda sad because I really wanted to talk to him and possibly hang out with him this weekend:( I haven't lost ALL hope yet, because maybe he was just busy this weekend. Hmm, why do I always give guys the benefit of the doubt? Oh ya, that's right, because I am nice. But ya, it would have been REAL fun to hang out with him. :( Stupid boys.
Well, I really should work on my homework, but I really don't want to.. I know that I will end up doing it sometime, just not right now.
lol.
i guess i will get back to doing nothing...
Later!
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Saturday, October 30th, 2004
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So last night I ended up talking to the boy...
things are a lot better.
That's really all I had to say. I just needed to update on that!
hopefully I get to see him today..but we will just have to wait and see!
Now it's time to go back to doing absoultely nothing!
Later!
P.S Easy Mac is SOOOO good!
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Friday, October 29th, 2004
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I am SO completely frusterated right now!
So ya, last night I had a REALLY great convo with this boy who I thought I was completely over. After last night, I knew that I was not over him, and things were looking really good.
THEN today he did the whole "so I was thinking about what we talked about last night," and when ANYONE says that, you know it's not a good thing. So I was giving him the time that he needed to think, when all of a sudden he signs off. Later I find that that he blew a fuse in his room
So I decide to stop by his room and say hi and to see what he was up to tonight (thinking that we could hang out or something, since I thought things between us were different) Basically I was TOTALLY wrong, and he said no to hanging out with me. Ya, real confused. So later on I am watching a movie in my friend's room, and Iwalk by his room to see a girl in his room ON his lap!! WHAT is that?!?! AHHH. And I was SOO close to telling him something that I know that he would have liked to hear, but no this chick had to be in his room ON his lap.
AHHH. Why oh why did I have to talk to him last night, and fall in "like" with him all over again.
Ahh why oh why do I have to be so frusterated!!!! I shouldn't let this bother me and move on with my life, but these things really get to me. Ahh. I haven't been this frusterated in a loooong time and trust me, I have not missed this feeling ONE bit.
And now I have absouletly nothing to do and it's only 10:17pm. Wow! Look at the fun that Alleigh is having on a FRIDAY night!
*sigh*
I guess I'll just cuddle up in bed and watch a movie or something.
But I am still mad!!
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Can someone be drunk off of sugar? Because boy do I feel drunk right now! I just ate a whole lot of candy that Val brought back with her. WOW. Not a good thing. I think I am getting a stomach ache :(
Speaking of drunkness, a bunch of my friend's are getting drunk on thirsty thursday...and fucked up friday and slaushed saturday...but NO Alleigh is a good girl :)
Well I think that's all I needed to say..
Goodnite!
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Tuesday, October 26th, 2004
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You know what I love? I love when I come back back to my room and see 5 MESSAGES all for me on my AIM :) I just feel soo loved. *sigh* I think that just made my day.
Tonight we carved pumpkins. I thoroughly enjoyed that! I haven't carved pumpkins in the LONGEST time. The fist pumpkin I carved didn't turn out too well so Val basically did the second one for me :) It turned out REALLY cute. Thanks Val!
Oh I have also come to the conclusion that I am going to have a cute 'lil pig as a pet when I grow up. I am going to name him Moo. Did you know that Moo in Thai means pork? Lol. Yep, I got this idea while watching Uptown Girls tonight. I really didn't like the movie the first time I saw it, but I think that it has just become one of my new favorites.
GRRR...You know what I don't understand? I don't understand why I spend soo much time focusing on boys?! I really don't try to focus on them, but when you see all the cutesy couples and the good looking guys on campus, it is really hard to not think about them.
Plus it doesn't help that all the boys that I have considered worthy to have a small crush on go down the DRAIN. Just today I found out that my new said crush has his said ex-girlfriend coming up tomorrow. SO yeah that doesn't make me all that happy.
I wish that I could just go back to how I was this summer, where I was NOT thinking about boys.
Well, I think that is enough for now...
Hope everyone has a wonderful tuesday :)
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Sunday, October 24th, 2004
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Sunday is the most amazing day of the week. I love going to church, singing then going to Lifeteen. I absouletly LOVE lifeteen. The teens and the CORE team are so much fun. It just makes my day! My life feels complete after a Lifeteen session :)
Well that's all I really had to say...
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So I think that I thoroughly enjoy random walks. Now, let me explain.
Today..I spent most of the day hanging out with Heather, Brittany and Adrian. We went to dinner and watched a movie. I definitely had a fun time. After the movie and such, I came back to my room. It was around midnight. Went away from my computer for awhile, then noticed that Adrian had IMed me (yes, a boy has IMed me FIRST for a change ) I thought that he had gone to a party, but I was wrong. Anyways.. we started talking and we figured out that we both were extremely bored and didn't want to sit around in our dorms all night. So, we decided to go for a walk. Let me tell you, I REALLY liked our walk. It definitely lasted for all of 2 hours. He definitely seems like a cool kid. But yeah, so that was my night!
Now, it is 3:30am and I just got back to my room. I thought for sure that my roommate would be in here sound asleep, but she's not. Interesting...I kind of think that she is distancing herself from me. I don't know why though. It seems like she doesn't want to talk to me. I don't know why because I am very easy to talk to...hmmm. I also found out today that she is in fact transfering to Miami of Ohio next semester.
Now I think I should go to bed...but I really don't want to..
Hmm...what to do, what to do..
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